lost

i've been on medications so long that i've become delusional. nothing seems to be enjoyable anymore. i'm trying to lose weight but i have no motivation. this feels crap. i feel down. i feel so down. i don't know what to do anymore.

broken dreams

i blame you for stopping me from being a lawyer.
i blame you.
and it hurts.
it hurts so bad.

first herbalife shake

First evening on Herbalife. I must admit, it tastes horrible. But I do hope it works in helping me shake off the excess weight, and that we'll have to wait and see. Six months of these shakes, and I surely hope they work on helping me lose and maintain my weight.